Seasons come and go, but I will never change.

I'm sort of noticing that as people get older, everything starts to change. This applies to nearly every aspect in life; school, friends, maturity, priorities in general, etc. But as of right now, the change I see the most in life is demand and relationships. Excuse my profanity, but everything is seriously just so fucked up now. Like, for example: I am in college, but still a highs school student. That alone forced me to grow up and be mature about shit. Every day I rely on myself and nobody else. And apparently, when you're in college, there's like a whole different set of rules to play by. I mean, I just got used to high school, and now I'm like doing this college thing? I feel almost out of my league. No, I AM out of my league. "Relationships"? Are they even real anymore? Going out for a coffee in between classes counts as a date? What the hell! Someone, PLEASE, inform me on the rules of college because I am so lost. Everything is so confusing. What's the difference between being "exclusive" and being in a relationship? How do you even get to the relationship part? I mean, people that I know just don't go around asking girls to be their girlfriend. I guess that's high school shit, who knows. Anyways, I just don't understand any of this and it pisses me off. 

Well, I might as well keep going as long as I'm in rant mode..

I AM SO MAD AT MY EX BOYFRIEND.

Do I have a legit reason to be? Yes. Should I even care anymore? Probably not. But I do. And it sucks ass. I mean, who does that? Who abuses their girlfriend, both verbally and physically, gets pissed for leaving for FIVE WEEKS to see her FAMILY, and then cheats on them while she is out of state? Might I add, with his best friend's ex girlfriend. He does. He does shitty things like that and it's totally not even fair because he got away with it. In the end, he got the girl, he still has his weird ass friends, and his parents don't give a shit that their son is the biggest asshole on the planet. Once again, I am in second place. Like fucking always. You know what? I'm getting tired of that bullshit to be honest. I'm always the girl who gets the shit end of the stick. If you don't know what that means, go to urbandictionary.com and I'm sure they'll clear that up for you. I'm either that, or I'm the girl that guys like to be friends with. I'm the awesome chick that will sit around and play video games with you and listen to Wiz while you talk shit about your girlfriend. That's me. Number two.

I'm getting upset now. Damnit. Maybe this blog wasn't such a good idea.